Hello, and welcome to my blog. My name is Michelle, and I’ve done this before.
I’ve started and stopped many a blog in my time. I think that I just like to bare my soul to the internet, but because I didn’t have much focus, I’d lose motivation and interest in the blog and it would eventually die.
This time, I feel I have something to write about. It may not be the happiest topic around, but it’s given me a purpose. In January of this year I had my second miscarriage. I’ll delve into the miscarriages someday in another post, but for now, all you need to know is that it changed me. I’ve always wanted to lose weight (me being on the heavier side most of me life) but now I have a reason. I don’t know if it will actually make a difference, but I’m determined to get healthier so that someday I might have my rainbow baby.
See what I did there?
Rainbows are a symbol of hope, and when you have a baby after losing one it is often called a ‘rainbow baby’. And elephants? Well, they are a symbol of strength. I’ve learned that I am so much stronger then I thought I was. And elephants live in a matriarchal herd. Despite the fact that I am not a mother yet, I hope to be. And so this blog was born. Here I will share my my struggles with getting healthy, trying to conceive, and (hopefully) I can write about being a new parent.
This is a place for me to share, heal, vent, whatever I need. Miscarriage is rarely talked about, but the more I share, the more I realize that it has happened to so many women. If you are one of them, I hope you know you are not alone.